“What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us." - A.W. Tozer, from "The Pursuit of God."
Rarely is a truer word spoken. A.W. Tozer has hit the proverbial nail on the head, while stepping on a nerve in each of us. The most important thing? Really? It causes our spirits to squirm in discomfort with how deep this penetrates. However, to understand the truth of this statement, we must smooth our ruffled feathers, swallow the bile that rises in our throats, and go back to the beginning.
Tozer’s revelation stings us so much because
it speaks to the heart that God created good. The heart that still feels the effect of the Fall, and longs to be truly good again, that once was deceived into believing God is not good. Believing He is holding out on us somehow. That there’s something He isn’t telling us. That perhaps He isn’t really who He said is, and we really can’t trust Him at all.
It is on this ground where Adam and Eve lost the first battle and brought condemnation on mankind. “Then the serpent said to the woman, “You will not surely die. For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.” – Genesis 3:4 -5.
This causes one to wonder if this was the first time Eve had considered such a thought, or if it was something she was meditating on. If the latter, then all Satan had to do was present the opportunity for her to act. In either case, Adam and Eve chose to come into agreement with his lie, and thousands of years later, creation is still reeling from their choice.
And then, there was Jesus. A perfect replica of the Father’s heart, throbbing right in front of us, to remind us of the truth: God is good. Jesus reversed the decree of death for mankind by making a different choice of thought. Even as He hung bleeding, mutilated, and crushed on the cross, He chose to believe in His Father’s goodness, and in so doing, became the goodness of God revealed.
As we walk through life, we easily lose sight of this, and we again believe in Satan’s lie. The question remains with us – but what if He’s not? If He is really good, then why is my family falling apart? If He is really good, why don’t I see my healing manifest? If He is really good, why am I suffering so much pain?
Dearly beloved ones, this way of thinking only brings death. We cannot afford to mistrust the goodness of God. Disappointment, bitterness, and resentment grow up in our souls, and before we know it, we don’t believe in Him at all. Like Jesus, we have a choice. Who will you believe? What will your choice be?
Also remember that He is not afraid of your questions – His greatest desire is for connection with your heart.
“…Him, being delivered by the determined purpose and foreknowledge of God, you have taken by lawless hands, have crucified, and put to death; whom God raised up, having loosed the pains of death, because it was not possible that He should be held by it.”
– Acts 2:23-24, emphasis added.